Today, perspective is settling in.
Yesterday I was able to squeeze in a quick dental procedure (I needed a filling) before my benefits expire in November, and I was also able to squeeze in a session with my Mom at the Temple. It was exactly where I needed to be. As you can imagine, I went with a prayer in my heart seeking peace, comfort, and guidance. It was a lovely session, and lucky for us also there was an old friend who was there for the first time taking out her endowments. It was special to be a part of her special day, not to mention the Spirit that was there in abundance.
I prayed for peace and comfort and perspective. I felt all of those things. It was a great session...full of women! We totally outnumbered the men. In attendance yesterday were all the sister missionaries from the Detroit Mission with the President and his wife. It was so neat to see them all there. It reminded me of my own mission. And then a thought occurred to me...today I feel like I did the day I came home from my mission. And then another thought occurred to me, "well done thou good and faithful servant". I knew the Lord was answering my prayer for perspective. Much like a missionary, for the past 2 and a half years I have dedicated my life to working, providing an income and benefits for my family. It has required sacrifice and dedication. It has caused to me to grow, stretch, and learn many new and valuable lessons. I have been so entrenched in the "work", that I have lost myself in many respects. Much like a missionary feels after returning home, I am weary from work and not quite sure what to do with my time now. I feel lots of mixed emotions. I feel a sense of loss, I will miss my little daily schedule that brought so much stability to my life, I will also miss many of the people I worked with and getting to know them better. On the other hand, there are many things I will not miss. The commute, the actual workload, the office politics and gossip, etc. I feel like my mission (working) is over now. I feel like I have returned with honor. I can hold my head up high, knowing that I did my best with what the Lord assigned me, and that it is time for me move on and find my next mission, whatever it may be. One thing I know for sure is that He always has a plan for me...I don't get to sit idly for too long!!
So isn't that an interesting answer to prayer? I feel like it was and the analogy spoke volumes to my heart and mind yesterday and even as I sit here writing this post. Sniff, sniff.
I also felt the overwhelming peace and comfort from our loving Heavenly Father that he loves me and my family, and will always be there for me, and will never leave me alone. He's okay with the fact that sometimes I only come to Him in my hour of need, He always has a solution to my problems and a way to fix what's been broken. (He did the same thing for Adam and Eve after they messed up, remember?) He will do the same for me and my family.
I love the Temple. I love the direct line it provides to Heaven. I feel closer to my Father and Savior there than in any other place. I'm grateful I could go yesterday. It provided me with such a sweet sense of closure and I feel ready to move on. I have much to be grateful for.
I'm grateful for my parents. My Mom is always such a calming voice of reason. She was the first person I called after talking to Mark, and by the end of our phone conversation she had me laughing about something totally unrelated. I'm grateful for her support and friendship. My Dad as well. I got to talk to him after our Temple session and he was extremely sympathetic and supportive, offering whatever we needed when the time comes. He will always sacrifice whatever is necessary to care for his children, no matter their age or circumstances. My Dad has always been there for me, no matter what.
I'm grateful for my siblings and in-laws, who have called and left messages (I don't answer my phone, sorry!), sent me email messages and already been sending out prayers for me and my family. Thank you for always rallying around when someone needs it. I love you all.
I'm grateful for my friends, most of which are my blog readers. Thank you for your sweet comments and words of encouragement and support. I am grateful to have sympathetic friends to share my life with. I only hope I can be the same friend to you in your hour of need.
And now a request...I lost all of my "favorites" for browsing my friend's blogs at work. If you could comment with your blog address, and current email address that would be great! I don't want to miss out on reading your awesome blogs and staying in touch!! I may not be as quick as I was at replying, but I will definitely be checking in on all of you.
Plus with such an open schedule now, let's do lunch sometime!! Shoot me an email, cause I probably won't answer my phone. Hee hee!!
Once again, thanks and lots of love,
Suzy